A Horrible Disease

Home·sick

 [hohm-sik]

adjective

sad or depressed from a longing for home or family while away from them for a long time.

The worst feeling in the whole world, I would say is homesickness. As Thanksgiving is tomorrow and Christmas is right around the bend, I have been feeling very low. As families get ready for this wonderful holiday season; members of each family reuniting, I feel more and more alone. Thanksgiving is a holiday where I would always spend it with my family. Every year I would pick out a cute little outfit and go to my cousins house for a big Thanksgiving meal. All of my family was there, together as one. This is the first year that I have been away from home for the holidays. Today here in Brasil, it is very rainy and cold, this makes everything so much worse. Every thought that goes through my head is about family or friends back at home. As I am 5,000 miles away, and all I want is to be home with my family. The feeling of homesickness is the worst emotions I have ever felt. Yes, I went to summer camp for about 2 weeks when I was younger and I would get a little homesick there, but nothing compared to the feeling I have right now. The worst part of being homesick, is that it is always there. Somedays it is less, and somedays it is a lot stronger, but it never goes away. I watch as all of my friends are arriving home for the holidays to be with their families and I feel like there is a wall preventing me to do that. I know this whole experience is going to be well worth it in the end, it is just the single most hardest thing I have ever done. I know there are so many people supporting me back in the USA but here, I feel so alone. I have not been myself lately, so sick and so down, always sleepy, and I never have enough energy to ever do anything. I feel like this is the ultimate test, and i hope it gets better. For all of you in the USA have a Happy Thanksgiving and happy holidays! Make the most of them because they're truly missed over here.