language-less

 Languages are so interesting to me. I used to think it was a totally impractical concept to think in a different language. The thought that someone could be thinking in a different language in their mind. To see little kids running around talking in a foreign language Even the dog knowing more of a language than I do; it all is so incredible to me. I have started to get the hang of speaking in a different language. It still is an awkward concept, but every day I am adapting more and more.

 Today I was sitting in English class and I was looking through the workbook. I would come across words I had forgotten how to spell, or words that just looked funny to me. My friends always make me do their English work in the book, thinking I am some sort of English dictionary but, today I was doing the assignment in the book and I noticed I am forgetting English. A lot of the times I had write out the different variations of the word and choose whichever one looked correct. Similar to the way when you are stuck between 'field' and 'feild' or 'untill' and 'until'. I even asked my friend if she knew how to spell some words, the thing is she speaks Portuguese. I've come to a conclusion; I no longer speak English, and I don't speak Portuguese yet, so I consider myself language-less. Caught in between two languages, loosing one and gaining the other, but not able to obtain them both. It's a strange concept, I guess you could call me crazy, or you can just imagine yourself in my shoes and experience it for yourself!